Waiting in Vain

"Call me stupid or whatever, I don't care. Like kita, bakit ba?"

Isang tanghaling tapat, nagising ako sa maingay na usapang nagaganap sa tapat ng dorm ko. Pagsilip ko, shet, ikaw ang aking nakita. At siyempre, mukha akong tangang nagtago sa mga kurtinang nagkukubli sa katauhan kong may gusto sa'yo, sinisilip ka hanggang sa mawala ka na at dumeresto sa kung saan mang hindi ko alam.

Magmula noon, inaabangan na ulit kita sa bintana ko, nagbabaka-sakali na makita ka ulit sa tapat ng dorm ko, at mag-ilusyong ako ang inaabangan mo. Pero, hindi na yata mauulit ang ganung pagkakataon. Nakakainis.

Beyond Words

One evening, after all our classes ended, On, Nino, Men, Oom, Retno and I went to Thammasat for a decent meal (which AIT doesn't have.) Nino and Retno were fasting for one whole day because of Ramadan so they were really craving for a decent meal.

The Thai girls (On, Men, and Oom) treat us to this place in Thammasat, somewhat resembling UP Shopping Center. Since I am a vegetarian, they ordered mostly vegetarian dishes. And this was one of the meals that night:

To us Pinoys, this is "Kangkong". To my surprise, this is "Kangkung" in Indonesia, Nino and Retno told me. And then, here in Thailand, it is called "Pak Bung" (Pak meaning vegetable, and they were kidding me, "Pak you!")

We were amazed with the semblance of the words from three different countries and culture. Actually, I learned that Bahasa Indonesia and Filipino are so alike that sometimes I can understand my Indonesian classmates when they're talking in their native tongue. Of course, they have to pay 5Baht per word everytime we hear them speak Bahasa Indonesia. Ahehe...of course if I speak Filipino, I have to pay 5baht also.

Now, what's kangkong in English?

Tenten and Sewen

Boyfriend namin ni Ching: Sewen kay Ching at Tenten sa akin. Ahehehe. Ngayon, may maghahatid at susundo na sa amin. Ahaha. :D Makakapunta na rin kami sa Thammasat! Weee!!!

Meet Buknoy

You don't have much choice, you'll have to spend the rest of your life editing pictures, writing papers, and playing music. I'm sorry, I'm that boring. But don't worry, I will love you because you're my first, even if I got you half your real price. Welcome to my world, Buknoy!

Kidnappin na 'Yan!

Dineadma niya ako ngayon. Maraming nakapila sa kanya. Nakakainis ang ka-cute-an niya. At nababadtrip ako kasi tumitiklop ako kapag nandiyan siya! Damn! Kaya, kidnappin na 'yan tutal sabi sa personality test na 'to e pwede akong maging kidnapper. Tara! Nasan na ba 'yun? :D

You Are Kidnapping

You love to be in control. You are incredibly dominant. A part of you even likes to make people suffer. It's all about power! You love to take risks, especially if the potential payoff is huge. But you wouldn't be in crime only for the money. You're twisted enough to just enjoy screwing with people.

What Felony Are You?

Fieldtrip: ED79.01

Start:	Sep 18, '08
Location:	Nonthabuti, Thailand

Dr. Perera's class

Fieldtrip: ED79.04

Start:	Sep 17, '08
Location:	Petchaburi, Thailand

Dr. Nowarat's class

Pigilan N'yo Ako Kundi Mananampal Talaga Ako ng Bietkong!

Pusang gala naman talaga o! Gusto ko siyang tirisin ng pinung-pino pagkatapos ko siyang pagsasampalin ng tsinelas na ipinanghahampas ng mga ipis habang ipinamumudmod ko sa mga kalapati ang kanyang nagkapira-pirasong katawan. Pero ititira ko ang kanyang utak dahil masamang magpakain sa hayop ng panis na pagkain!

Hindi naman ako galit 'no. Sa sobrang pagkapikon ko sa kanya, naninikip ang dibdib ko at hindi ako makahinga. Wala pa akong isang buwan dito pero may kaaway na ako. Hay naku naman. Kailangang hinay-hinay lang sa emosyon kundi mapapaaga ang uwi ko sa Pilipinas, pwera na lang kung may mag-aalaga sa akin dito pero wala nga e. Hay...

Nahihirapan kaming lahat na intindihin ang lahat ng sinasabi niya dahil nga sa pagkakaiba namin ng wika. Naiintindihan ko 'yun. Pero ang hindi ko maintindihan ay ang kagustuhan niyang sundin namin lahat ng gusto niya at ang gusto lang niya, wala nang iba! E 'day, hindi naman ako papayag dahil grade ko rin naman ang nakasalalay dito (hindi naman ako nagpapaka-grade conscious 'no pero kailangan ko 'yun para makastay ako dito, at ayokong mapahiya 'te!) So kailangan kong i-edit ang lahat ng gusto niya, at isasama sa ibang suggestion ng grupo.

Aba naman, sabihin ba namang walang kwenta 'yung ginawa ko?? ANAK NG TOKWA, e mas walang kwenta kaya 'yung ginawa niya. Halimbawa, sabi sa questionnaire na ginawa niya na ipinagpipilitan niyang iyon ang gamitin:

"You can stick many choices" --> stick???

"Taste of Water: Normal or Abnormal?" --> Ano ang measurement mo ng pagkanormal at pagka-abnormal?

"Health Effect: Allergic: crash / Losing your hair / Eyed irritation" --> yun na, ayoko na!

Diba naman? Tapos gusto niya ito 'yung gagamitin namin at sasabihin niyang useless 'yung ginawa ko!!! Grabe! Parang nilibak-libak naman yata ang pagkatao ko dun!

At ito pa, kung makapangbati ang lola mo, "Hi Sharon! You look you tired. Why you here?"

Ang ganda ng lola mo!!! Ipakulot ko kaya ang siya, siya talaga ha hindi lang buhok niya, o kaya mas maganda kung ipa-straight natin siya baka maging straight utak niya.

Hay naku... nakakapangliit ng mata!

Afraid For Love To Fade

My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define
A crush combined with longing?
Longing to possess you oh so dearly
I'm obsessed by you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
Let me say the things and say the words
To let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
Than lose you
Or for love to fade
Before it can come true

Hindi Ako Nagtatago!

Taliwas sa inaakala ng lahat, HINDI PO AKO NAGTATAGO!

• Wala lang akong pan-text sa Pilipinas dahil 100 pesos ang maintaining balance ng roaming sa globe kaya hindi ako makatext. 100 pesos na lang ang load ng sim ko.
• Mahal magtext using roaming services ng globe. Kung kayo ang magtetext, piso lang 'yun pero kapag nagreply ako, 25pesos yun.
• Wala akong mabilhan ng load dito ng globe.
• Mahal din ang pagtetext using DTAC. Hindi pa ako nakakabili ng DeeDial.
• Kung magtext naman ako, hindi ko alam kung natatanggap ang mga text ko. Kasi hindi naman kayo nagrereply.
• At kung mag-email naman ako, wala rin namang sumasagot, bukod kay lau.
• Wala pa akong laptop kaya hindi ako madalas makapag-internet.
• Wala rin YM dito sa computer lab.
• Kailangan ko munang manghiram ng laptop sa mga pwedeng mahiraman bago ako makapag-internet ng matino, at madalas, gamit din nila 'yung mga laptop nila.
• Gustuhin ko mang kamustahin kayo araw-araw, hindi afford ng budget ko. Estudyante lang po ako dito at minimal lang ang allowance. Kailangan ko pang ipunin para pambayad ng utang. Next sem pa ako papayagang mag-work.
• Pinapakain ako dito para mag-aral kaya naman wala akong choice kundi... mag-aral! Hehehe, gustuhin ko man o hindi. (This is karma!!! Damn!)
• Miss na miss ko na kayo pero kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko kundi, iiyak lang ako nang iiyak dito.

So ayun. Hindi ako nagtatago. Mahirap lang talaga ang maghanap ng affordable means of communication these days. Tsaka sana sagutin n'yo rin mga mails ko sa inyo kasi kailangan ko 'yung reply n'yo. Please!!!

Salamat and miss y'all!

P.S. Hindi busy ang love life ko. Actually, wala nga akong love life e. Hindi ko siya mahanap dito kahit tumaybay na ako sa kung saan-saan. Hayy... kaya babay na lang sa kanya! Charoz! Political life pa, pwede! Ahahaha!

Hugs for a Crying Soul

... i miss lau

It's been almost a month since I came here and all I did was to bother my friends with all my kagagahan. Babes picked me up at the airport late at 1 o'clock in the morning because I don't really know what to do after getting here; Oyeng helped me get to AIT because again, I don't know how to get here, he even carried my very heavy bag; and Kissy is always feeding my hungry stomach everytime I visit her place. Babes also lend me 3000baht so that I can buy a new phone because my DTAC sim card doesn't work with my "very hightech" Nokia 1100. Toto (Pastor Tad-y) added 900baht so I can buy the nokia phone with camera. He even gave me his 1GB memory card (Zadel said it was just an excuse so he can buy a 2GB memory card!! ehehe) with all the mp3s that kept me sane for the last two weeks.

I got lost a couple of times already (taking the wrong van going to Muang Thong Thani, for example) and embarassed myself with my loud big mouth. My heart is on the verge of falling from a cliff and my mind is starting to ask me, "What the hell are you doing here?"

Well, I really don't know why I am here but I'm thankful for all my friends whom I can talk to, and just spend a good laugh trip.

These pictures were taken during these past weeks, using the phone I bought at The Mall with Toto, Zadel and Ching.

I miss Pilipinas!