Ashes

March 23, 2009, Ratchaburi, Thailand. Libing ni Dr. Nowee. First time kong makasaksi ng Buddhist Funeral. Halos week-long 'yung ceremony, last day na ako nakapunta, nung iki-cremate na siya. We were there since 11am until 5pm. We left AIT at 8am, so medyo may kalayuan 'yung lugar.

Behind the colorful facade of this Thai Temple, sadness was overwhelming. Even the brightness of the sun cannot outshine the loneliness of the ones who cared for her.

I will really miss you, Dr. Nowee.

Ano nga kaya, 'no?

I find this very amusing. Haha.

I know for a fact that the name Arjay Arellano isn't the most unique name in the world, so this could be anybody with the same name as my friend. Nakakatawa lang isipin kung "Arjay Arellano" na kakilala ko nga itong tinutukoy niya. Haha.

sabi sa blog:

"the name of the guy is arjay arellano and yes i love him from the start…mula palang po ng makita ko ang lalaking ito minahal ko na..."

Diba naman? Sinong hindi maku-curious. Eto pa:

"pro wag k 1yr ako niligawan nito oh laban k???hehe.. but you know what we never had a formal break up and its really hard for me to move on right after the relationship."

Hmmm... this was written in August 2007. If this is my friend Arjay, then he's keeping secrets from me (like hello, of course he has his secrets! haha) and wait, hindi naman niya one year niligawan yung ex niya? Haha... pero tuloy natin...

"i love him so much that every time i got to think about him i dont care where am i dahil i usually burst out.. my tears never stop falling for him. until now i never got the chance of talking to him..."

Naisip ko lang. I doubt kun si Arjay nga na friend ko ang tinutukoy dito. Hindi ganito magsulat yung ex nya, at yung mga nagustuhan niya, hindi ganito kababaw magsulat... unless, niko-conceal niya ang totoo niyang identity. haha.

Pasensya na. Nasobrahan na yata ako ng kakapanood ng Veronica Mars kaya ganito. Pero, nagtataka pa rin ako, sino kayang "Arjay Arellano" ang tinutukoy nito at sino kaya 'tong nagsulat nito? hehe

Hinga muna

Ang tagal ko nang hindi nakapag-multiply! huhuhuhuhu... pero wag nang magreklamo dahil konting panahon na lang ang kailangan kong gugulin sa pagpapaka-busy dahil malapit na ang FINALS!!! grabe na 'to!

Pero bago mag-celebrate ang kagandahan ko, my gulay, sandmakmak na kangaragan muna. Halos natapos ko na ang karamihan sa mga requirements, konting hinga pa at ayos na ang buto-buto. Kaya lang, sobrang taas na ng stress-level ko, umaatake-to-the-max ang allergies ko, walis-tambo look na ang hairlaloo ko, kungfu panda na ang eyebags ko, at ang room, mukha ng landfill. My gulay! Hay, buti na lang nakatakas ako ngayong gabi, este, madaling araw pala, para makabisita sa blogey kow.

Hay... back to kangaragan! Chow!

Tongue Twister

"Sa
lahat
ng
salitang
pinagbubuhol-buhol,
sa 'yo
lamang
talaga
ako
nabubulol."



choz!

Guess Who

If you're a sci-fi fan (or a geek, like what they say! ), then probably you wouldn't mistaken him as SYLAR. Hahaha. This is Mr. Spock, the half-Vulcan-half-Human character in J.J, Abrams' Star Trek. But since Zachary Quinto, a.k.a. Sylar, is playing the character, then ok, you can associate him to Sylar. ahaha...

I am so excited to watch this film. Release date is set on May 2009. (Actually, I got a long list of sci-fi movies to watch this year. Harharhar... only if I have enough time for this...) By the way, Sylar is so cute, i mean Zachary! hehehe!

Images grabbed from
http://www.imdb.com/media/rm1691260160/ch0001439 and
http://www.virginmedia.com/movies/galleries/previews/star-trek-cast.php?ssid=3

Nagsusumixteen Series: Self-Talk

Today, you were actually given that rare chance to smile at him yet you chose to be a wimp.

He was standing right in front of you. It will only take you a little head-lift and a little eye contact and it could have been the greatest moment of your entire... ahmmm... week! He ain't gonna notice that it was even intentional. And since you've been sitting almost next to each other for more than three months in class, it is natural for you to exchange curtsy. He will not take it against you, i hope, and whether he smiles back at you or not is entirely a different story.

And yet, you just let the moment pass. Your head was bowed down, your eyes were pointing nowhere, and your smile was hidden somewhere in the back of your head chasing his presence inch after inch while you walk away from him. You blew your chance, for the nth time, and no one knows if you will still be given another chance. The semester is a month away from its passing and his time here in Thailand is almost over, and you blew another chance of a probable friendship, or whatever.

You are such a wimp! Like, totally!

Nagsusumixteen Series: Si Manong Kuya

Tumalon, tumakbo, at nadapa ang puso ko
nang makita ko ang likuran mo...

Hindi naging kumpleto ang nakaraang linggo ko kasi wala ka. Nalaman ko na lang, nag-China ka pala. Hindi tuloy kita nakita noong Martes at Biyernes. Isang linggo kong inabangan ang pagbalik mo, gabi-gabing dumaraan sa tapat ng dorm mo, nagbabakasaling may masisinagan akong ilaw sa kuwarto mo, pero hanggang kagabi, hindi pa rin kita nakikita.

Pero kanina, habang tulog akong nagbibisikleta papunta sa silid-aklatan, nakita ko ang likod mo, naglalakad sa may di kalayuan. Tila bang tumalon, tumakbo, at nadapa ang puso ko nang makita ko ang likuran mo. Nandito ka na ulit! Ang saya-saya naman! Kailangan ko na lang maghagilap ng sapat na lakas ng loob para man lang makatingin sa'yo ng deretso, at kung kakayanin pang makangiti sa'yo, para na akong biniyayaan ng super powers nun.

Martes na bukas. Kita-kita tayo sa klase. Hihihi. Bigla akong na-excite!

It's a Miracle!

Okay! Fine! I over-reacted! Kelan naman ako hindi naging OA, exaggerated, at exceptionally ngarag sa mga bagay-bagay sa buhay ko? I was trained to magnify ordinary things to make them look extraordinary. It's art!

Haha! Sorry. I'm just justifying the exaggeration of my reaction towards my academic life. Hehe. Nataranta lang ako, nagimbal at nagising sa katotohanan.

Para wala nang paligoy-ligoy pa, sasabihin ko na kung anong nangyari. Ganito:

• Mababa pa rin ang nakuha ko dun sa pinangangambahan kong subject, pero hindi naman siya kababaan na tipong patatalsikin na ako dito sa AIT. Kaya pa naman siyang bawiin kahit next highest grade na lang (but I'm still aiming for an A! Lord, help me!)
• Kumbaga sa battery, Triple A ako. Hehe. Yun. :) Pero nangangahulugan din 'yun na kailangan kong magtino pa kasi midterms pa lang 'yun. There's still a big chance na bumaba pa 'yun kapag nagpabaya ako. More pressure! My gulay!
• Isa sa mga subjects ko ay walang grade kasi wala daw pagbabasihan, sabi ni Dadi Seyj. Hehe. Kasi naman, one credit lang yun tapos 5points pa lang yung assignments na binigay niya. Well, Research Design yun so ang mahalaga dun ay ang Thesis Proposal at the end of the semester.

Speaking of thesis proposal, I need to finish my thesis proposal as soon as possible, and I have to defend it as early as may, dahil by June/July, I should be going back to Baguio to do my data gathering and my internship.

So there. Isang buwan na lang at Finals na naman! At nape-pressure na akong lalo! Natatae na ako sa pressure. Haha

Well, I can say, it's still good to feel low sometimes kasi you get to realize that you have to try your best in everything and you cannot survive without God's grace! Nababatukan ang mga papetik-petik! Kaya ayun!

Kung sa ANTM pa 'to, sasabihin ni Tyra sa akin, "You're still running towards becoming America's Next Top Model!" Sabay fierce-look... and pout!

Haha.

To my dearest Pangga!

BONGGANG-BONGGA ka ngayong araw na ito dahil ARAW mo ngayon!

Dedma sa lahat ng nega, kalimutan ang problema! I-enjoy ang araw na ito dahil minsan ka lang maging 24. Di ba!

Wag kalimutang ngumiti! Baka may maakit, para magka-lovelife na rin tulad ni *****! ayun, bawal daw sabihin kaya puro *****! ahahahaha!

At dahil nga ispeyshal day mo today, eto ang iyong horoscope for the day! hehehe

"It's important to be around people who share the same values as you right now.

Why would you listen to anyone who tells you that you can't accomplish one of your goals? Someone as charming and as dedicated as you can work their way around any obstacles thrown in their path. So if you get a red light from the big boss, your funds are pulled or the weather rains all over your picnic plans, turn to other people to help you out. You know exactly how to ask for favors from people -- and there are quite a few favors due to you. Call them in." (Ayon sa iyong horoscope! Ahahaha!)

Wabyu Jay! Mwah!

Songkran

Start:	Apr 13, '09
End:	Apr 15, '09
Location:	Thailand

Three-day holiday in Thailand! Walang pasok!!! Oh yeah!