My Thesis Love Affair (Thai Version) #1

Sabi ni Thesis, "'Pag 'di mo pa ako pinansin, break na tayo!" Natakot naman ako.

-- tweet ko noong 10 March 2010

Morning Balinguynguy

Kakatunog ng relo, 6:30 ng umaga.

boy adik: Oist pano na nga bumasa ng t-test? Hahaha

girl bangag: Hahaha. Ako pa talaga tinanong mo.

*after ilang minutes*

boy adik: Alam ko na. Ok results nung survey. Astig!

boy adik: haha

girl bangag: wow

boy adik: Madugo lang na pag-i-e-explain.

girl bangag: hahahahaha

boy adik: Daming extraneous variables...

girl bangag: Feb pa lang naman, kaya mo yan. hahaha

boy adik: Teka yung thesis mo diba place based identity?

girl bangag: Uu...

boy adik: Nag-iinfluence ba talaga 'yun for social action?

girl bangag: "Their varying placed-based identities also proved to be influenced by social factors existing in their communities, which are necessary conditions for these place-based identities to be manifested into environmental collective action."

girl bangag: Sabi ng thesis abstract

girl bangag: hahahaha

boy adik: hahaha

boy adik: Ganun ung nangyari sa isang site ko, kahit na wala masyadong resources, similar yung recovery rate from Ondoy dun sa isang site na busog sa resources

boy adik: katuwa naman

Ang agang balinguynguy naman nito... :P

Paunawa: Magka-birthday sina Boy Adik at Girl Bangag, sana naipapaliwanag nito kung bakit para silang mga sira kung mag-usap. Hahaha!

Xiaui was here!

In my almost two years of stay here in Thailand, I stayed in three different student accommodations.

The first one was in SV66 B1. SV stands for Student Village, 66 means you're far from the gate, and B means you're on the second floor. I remember, I literally had to drag myself to this dorm with all the 20-kilo baggage I have. It's too far from the classrooms, too far from the gates, too far from almost everything. Hehehe. But I stayed here from August until December 2008. What I liked here though, were the natural sunlight and breeze, and the Pinoy-style morning chaos, three other Pinays were living next door. It's as if I never left home. 

After SV66B1, I transferred to N310A. If SV66 was far, dorm N was even farther... from Gate 1, but it was closer to Gate 2, laundry at dorm X or Y, Kissy's, Donna's, and to my crush (he used to live in front of my dorm). This room is better. I can sing as loudly as I want to and no one seemed to care. But this room is on the third floor, has no refrigerator, and gets over heated during noon, especially summer afternoons. I stayed here from January until September 2009 and endured my summer days pretending to do my thesis proposal.

Then before going home for my data collection, my new room assignment was given. It's relatively smaller than my first two rooms. Plus points for this room are: it is near the grocery, Hom Krun (a coffee shop), ATM, classrooms, gate, etc.,; it is air-conditioned, has kitchen, and the bathroom is all mine! It's on the fifth floor though but I don't really care! Hehehe... The view isn't great here but I can always go out for a walk, hoping not to bump into my adviser. Hehehe. This is where I am spending the rest of days here as a student.

FILA 08

Mga naganap last year -- kalokohan, etc.

Raket, anyone? (Seryoso po) ASAP

Attention: College Students from Baguio (Preferably marunong mag-ilocano, madiskarte at ipinanganak na isyusera/isyusero) na naghahanap ng konting raket, at nais gamitin ang kanyang spare time para sa mas makabuluhang bagay (like to save the world or something to that effect. hehehe)

I need some assistance kasi para sa thesis ko. ASAP. as in uber-ASAP.

PM me if you're interested.


Salamat,
Xiaui

Visitaciones ni FVR

August 20, nakipagkulitan si FVR sa mga Pinoy sa AIT. He was in Thailand for the 50th Anniversary of AIT. Namigay din siya ng mga tobacco. hehehe

One Fine Day

Sumikat ang araw sa monsoon country, nakapaglakad-lakad tuloy! Hehe

Tuesday is "Khun-sumisyon" Day

I don't like waking up early because it's torture for me, but since TUESDAY is the cleaning day for my room, I have no choice but to always get out of the bed, leave my room and roam around the campus half-asleep. And today, my friends, is Tuesday.

I don't despise the fact that someone is cleaning my room, infact I am certainly grateful for that. Yet, sometimes, I wish I never have to get up just because someone has to change my beddings. I mean, I can do that on my own, I can even clean my own room. I just don't want to be disturbed especially if sleeping is concerned.

Look, I have a difficult time sleeping. Sometimes, I am up for 48 hours before I can really feel sleepy. When I feel that, I dont hesitate, I sleep. And I dont want to be disturbed. So if someone wakes me up when I am in the middle of my dreamland adventure, that is absolutely irritating. But I don't blame the Khuns. They're just doing their jobs, so dedicated that they even miskaten me for a pillow once and they just threw all the stuff on my head bringing me entirely to my senses. They said sorry, so it was okay. But that really hurt. After that incident, my Tuesdays were never the same as before.

I just wished my dorm's cleaning schedule isn't morning. Or probably, I wish my insomnia will be cured soon so that I won't have to be so irritable all the time, Tuesdays specially.

P.S. I don't leave my room without taking a bath and bringing some baht. hehehe

 

 

Sa wakas...

Matapos ang isang semester ng paghihintay, isang milyong beses na deadmahan, at makailang ulit na salubungan sa daan, nabiyayaan rin ako ng isang matamis na "HI"...

ni Kuya!!!

at ang puso ko'y tumalon, pero delayed reaction! Nakasampung hakbang na ako saka ko na-realize na binati pala niya ako at bigla akong napabulalas ng "YES!"

Haha... Yun lang. Hihihi

Happy Eating

When there are million reasons to celebrate, eating good food with crazy people should not be missed. :

These pictures were taken from Ting and P'Jo's Thesis Defense, FILA Farewell Party for Graduating Students, and their Surprise Pre-Graduation Dinner (nasurprise sila kasi bigla lang kaming sumulpot ni Ching!) Hehe

Today is their Graduation Day. Congrats!

ED 79.16 Final Exam

Start:	May 11, '09 09:00a
End:	May 11, '09 12:00p
Location:	E108, AIT, Thailand

Conflict Resolution Final Exam - Last Hirit!

(Last time ko na rin na makikita si Unno... huhuhu)

ED 79.14 Final Exam

Start:	May 4, '09 1:00p
End:	May 4, '09 4:00p
Location:	ET109, AIT, Thailand

Governance Final Exam - Last hirit!

Ashes

March 23, 2009, Ratchaburi, Thailand. Libing ni Dr. Nowee. First time kong makasaksi ng Buddhist Funeral. Halos week-long 'yung ceremony, last day na ako nakapunta, nung iki-cremate na siya. We were there since 11am until 5pm. We left AIT at 8am, so medyo may kalayuan 'yung lugar.

Behind the colorful facade of this Thai Temple, sadness was overwhelming. Even the brightness of the sun cannot outshine the loneliness of the ones who cared for her.

I will really miss you, Dr. Nowee.

Hinga muna

Ang tagal ko nang hindi nakapag-multiply! huhuhuhuhu... pero wag nang magreklamo dahil konting panahon na lang ang kailangan kong gugulin sa pagpapaka-busy dahil malapit na ang FINALS!!! grabe na 'to!

Pero bago mag-celebrate ang kagandahan ko, my gulay, sandmakmak na kangaragan muna. Halos natapos ko na ang karamihan sa mga requirements, konting hinga pa at ayos na ang buto-buto. Kaya lang, sobrang taas na ng stress-level ko, umaatake-to-the-max ang allergies ko, walis-tambo look na ang hairlaloo ko, kungfu panda na ang eyebags ko, at ang room, mukha ng landfill. My gulay! Hay, buti na lang nakatakas ako ngayong gabi, este, madaling araw pala, para makabisita sa blogey kow.

Hay... back to kangaragan! Chow!

Nagsusumixteen Series: Self-Talk

Today, you were actually given that rare chance to smile at him yet you chose to be a wimp.

He was standing right in front of you. It will only take you a little head-lift and a little eye contact and it could have been the greatest moment of your entire... ahmmm... week! He ain't gonna notice that it was even intentional. And since you've been sitting almost next to each other for more than three months in class, it is natural for you to exchange curtsy. He will not take it against you, i hope, and whether he smiles back at you or not is entirely a different story.

And yet, you just let the moment pass. Your head was bowed down, your eyes were pointing nowhere, and your smile was hidden somewhere in the back of your head chasing his presence inch after inch while you walk away from him. You blew your chance, for the nth time, and no one knows if you will still be given another chance. The semester is a month away from its passing and his time here in Thailand is almost over, and you blew another chance of a probable friendship, or whatever.

You are such a wimp! Like, totally!

Nagsusumixteen Series: Si Manong Kuya

Tumalon, tumakbo, at nadapa ang puso ko
nang makita ko ang likuran mo...

Hindi naging kumpleto ang nakaraang linggo ko kasi wala ka. Nalaman ko na lang, nag-China ka pala. Hindi tuloy kita nakita noong Martes at Biyernes. Isang linggo kong inabangan ang pagbalik mo, gabi-gabing dumaraan sa tapat ng dorm mo, nagbabakasaling may masisinagan akong ilaw sa kuwarto mo, pero hanggang kagabi, hindi pa rin kita nakikita.

Pero kanina, habang tulog akong nagbibisikleta papunta sa silid-aklatan, nakita ko ang likod mo, naglalakad sa may di kalayuan. Tila bang tumalon, tumakbo, at nadapa ang puso ko nang makita ko ang likuran mo. Nandito ka na ulit! Ang saya-saya naman! Kailangan ko na lang maghagilap ng sapat na lakas ng loob para man lang makatingin sa'yo ng deretso, at kung kakayanin pang makangiti sa'yo, para na akong biniyayaan ng super powers nun.

Martes na bukas. Kita-kita tayo sa klase. Hihihi. Bigla akong na-excite!

It's a Miracle!

Okay! Fine! I over-reacted! Kelan naman ako hindi naging OA, exaggerated, at exceptionally ngarag sa mga bagay-bagay sa buhay ko? I was trained to magnify ordinary things to make them look extraordinary. It's art!

Haha! Sorry. I'm just justifying the exaggeration of my reaction towards my academic life. Hehe. Nataranta lang ako, nagimbal at nagising sa katotohanan.

Para wala nang paligoy-ligoy pa, sasabihin ko na kung anong nangyari. Ganito:

• Mababa pa rin ang nakuha ko dun sa pinangangambahan kong subject, pero hindi naman siya kababaan na tipong patatalsikin na ako dito sa AIT. Kaya pa naman siyang bawiin kahit next highest grade na lang (but I'm still aiming for an A! Lord, help me!)
• Kumbaga sa battery, Triple A ako. Hehe. Yun. :) Pero nangangahulugan din 'yun na kailangan kong magtino pa kasi midterms pa lang 'yun. There's still a big chance na bumaba pa 'yun kapag nagpabaya ako. More pressure! My gulay!
• Isa sa mga subjects ko ay walang grade kasi wala daw pagbabasihan, sabi ni Dadi Seyj. Hehe. Kasi naman, one credit lang yun tapos 5points pa lang yung assignments na binigay niya. Well, Research Design yun so ang mahalaga dun ay ang Thesis Proposal at the end of the semester.

Speaking of thesis proposal, I need to finish my thesis proposal as soon as possible, and I have to defend it as early as may, dahil by June/July, I should be going back to Baguio to do my data gathering and my internship.

So there. Isang buwan na lang at Finals na naman! At nape-pressure na akong lalo! Natatae na ako sa pressure. Haha

Well, I can say, it's still good to feel low sometimes kasi you get to realize that you have to try your best in everything and you cannot survive without God's grace! Nababatukan ang mga papetik-petik! Kaya ayun!

Kung sa ANTM pa 'to, sasabihin ni Tyra sa akin, "You're still running towards becoming America's Next Top Model!" Sabay fierce-look... and pout!

Haha.

Songkran

Start:	Apr 13, '09
End:	Apr 15, '09
Location:	Thailand

Three-day holiday in Thailand! Walang pasok!!! Oh yeah!

Khok Charoen, Lopburi

Here are some of the snap shots of our trip to Khok Charoen, Lopburi Porvince, Thailand for the Gender Analysis and Gender Responsive Development Planning class under Dr. Kyoko.

Capital T

"... as in Tanga!"


Siguro, hudyat na ito na kailangan ko nang umuwi. O kung sa termino pa ng mga galit sa akin at nag-iisip na ilusyunada ako, panahon na para lumibel ako sa dapat kong kalagyan.

Nabagsak ko ang isa sa mga exam ko, at yun pa lang ang resultang nakukuha ko sa ngayon. Nangangamba ako na pare-pareho ang kalalabasan ng apat ko pang exam dahil, una, tanga naman talaga ako; pangalawa, pareho lang ang takbo ng utak ko simula ng una hanggang huling exam.

Pagod na ako sa totoo lang, pagod na akong makipaghabulan sa mga gusto kong abutin. Huling pagkakataon na ito at anong ginawa ko? Hindi ko alam kung hindi ko lang talaga kaya o nawawala na naman ako sa konsentrasyon?

Sasabihin siguro ng mga galit sa akin, "HINDI MO KASI TALAGA KAYA, ILUSYUNADA KA KASI!" Putang-ama n'yo! At least ako, sinusubukan kong habuli at abutin yung mga gusto ko kahit minsan e suntok sa buwan talaga! Kung ano mang kahinaan meron ako, pinipilit kong i-overcome yun! Nakakapagod na kaya! At oo, ilusyunada ako, kasi ayokong nagsesettle sa ganito lang.

Nakakapagod na lang talaga.

Masyado na akong matanda para sa mga kapalpakan! Pero eto na naman ako, pumapalpak pa rin ng bonggang-bongga! At lagi't laging may repurcussions ang mga bonggang-bongga kong kapalpakan, i.e., hindi na ako makakatuloy mag PhD kasi kamusta naman ang grade ko, diba?

Ngayon, hindi ko alam kung titigilan ko na 'tong habulan na 'to o mas lalo lang akong tatakbo kahit wala na akong lakas. Pero kasi, baka naman hindi na ako kasali sa habulan e takbo pa rin ako ng takbo? Diba katangahan 'yun?

O baka tanga lang talaga ako?